So so much Sunday

So this morning Chuck and I woke up at 10 AM (yea I know. .I hate us too), and we immediately got to work cleaning our room. No, we are not Oscar the grouch and it wasn't that bad.. but we had mounds of clothes that had to be put away. As easy as it is to wash and fold, lately the putting away has escaped me.. its ridiculous to say that we have too many clothes right? well, we do. but sadly. as much as we have. Emily is worse.. someone who works with Chuck gave him a 32 gallon trash bag FULL of little girl clothes.. Inside were some of the worlds cutest outfits I have ever seen..... and name brand stuff too. But Emily now owns... 62 pairs of pants :oX and I gave a bunch away on freecycle. My mom started to laugh out loud when I told her that too. it really is sad. She has two full drawers of long sleeve shirts, two drawers of dresses, a full drawer of size medium and large onesies and so many short sleeve shirts and summer clothes that I figure next year at this time we MAY need to buy clothes.. its actually a little sad. We did go through and fill a box of stuff for someone from freecycle and we also filled a Disney store bag (the great big ones) for some friends who have had some issues lately. I am glad we are so blessed to have so much, and so many friends who have helped us (Karen <3, class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">Nikia <3)

We did our family "mini Christmas" yesterday...we do a nice family meal (this year we did the worlds easiest meal.. we made cheesy chicken and rice casserole with rolls and a cake for dessert. And we take the kids stockings early in the day, and we refill them... I knew this was going to be exciting this year because David is VERY into Santa. So i pointed out that the stockings were gone, and he said "oh no! my socks!" I said its ok.. santa must have taken them. And then Chuck (Mr Claus), Stephanie (head elf) and I (Mrs Claus) stuffed the stockings in the van, while we ran around getting a few other last minute things. We came home, he, David, AJ and Emily went on a drive and Mary (mini elf 1) and Danny (mini elf 2) helped us get everything down stairs to the living room. And then I made "The call" to Mr Claus.. I said put me on speaker phone and I told him to hurry home that Santa had been here and left presents to which David said "DAD! hurry up and drive!" They got home and we did our Christmas here, the reason we do this is two fold 1) so we can do this as our family and 2) so we dont have to cart as much stuff up to my moms. So the following gifts were received:

Emily got a winnie the pooh activity table that I got on sale on Black Friday, this thing is DARLING and she loves it. oooh and she got a birdie cage Xylophone, and a shirt because obviously after what i told you all earlier you see she really needed clothes.. um. ok not so much. but its cute it says "hug me, kiss me, hold me!" and she got her stocking that was stuffed with fun stuff.

David got a Little Einsteins laptop, which is perfect because he is VERY into letters and numbers, he got the Little einsteins Baton (ITS NOT A WAND MOM! its LEOs BATON!.. mea culpa.. mea culpa.. mea MAXIUM culpa) and he got Hungry Hungry hippos..i have heard about this game FOREVER I knew he had to have it, now I will just pray we never find one of the little white balls in Emilys diaper ewww.. and he also got his stocking filled with stuff that was fascinating.. um. for a four year old.

Mary.. well Mary came REAL close to getting coal.. but i was good. instead she got a tinkerbell handheld game, a Baby Bratz doll (hurry up and get these if you haven't they go off the market in January and most places have started clearancing them already), and she got her ipod shuffle... may I say this child has been a DOLL the past day.. gee i wonder why? :o)~ oh and her stocking.

AJ ooh we got him good.. he asked for a hoodie (check), a Mets skull cap (check), an Ipod (oh yea we got him GOOD.. he didnt see this coming at all), a handheld baseball game, a watch and his stocking... not as exciting as toys but he asked for the hoodie and hat.. so we did good ;o)~ btw, mary and David got watches too..

Danny got the new Harry Potter book that JK Rowling put out.. its real short but he was tickled.. Danny is a book junkie, Danny also got head phones for his Ipod he got last year, Three lego characters you build and they do something.. I know I know I should know.. but I don't... sighs.. oh and a battleship game (yes the handheld games are for the car to avoid hearing "shes looking at me" "hes touching me" "how much longer?") No watch for danny, he got one for his birthay, but he did get a stocking.

Stephanie got her makeup set that she begged me for.. I am talking she offered to clean her room FOREVER...she got her sunglasses (big and blingy.. so teenager), and two new shirts.. I said "not very exciting" she says "all materialistic SO cool!" um ok. weirdo. .she got her stocking too.

Chuck got his presents, he got a watch with a gadgetty knife (boys and their toys), The new JD Robb book (no, I dont know the name.. I dont read them lol), a hand held game of Press your luck.. and then he got me.. good. I mean.. I am talking I didnt see it coming... And for chuck thats impressive.. I got a tea pot (I love hot tea and really wanted one) that I am told was from the kids, then I got a hoodie (mine was religious.. it was very holy haha i kill me), then he gave me a sudoku hand held game.. woohoo!! and finally.....i got a watch.. a really pretty my first grown up watch. its so pretty!! I am proud. wow he got me good.. shocking.

Ok that was mini christmas we even made a "grinch cake" it was green :o)~ with red frosting.. and we were having a great night.. until.......

My brother Gregg called.. he says "whatcha doing?" (playing mini golf and getting mad that chuck was beating me..) "what do you want to be doing?" (going to bed so i can stop losing) so he says Joshua apparently called him and cut his fingers on a bailer (The machine that crushes boxes.. see now you know what its called.. my blog is educational too) he cut his middle finger and ring finger and pointer.. (makes that whole where is pointer game sort of hard.. well good thing is hes a little big for it huh?), anyways I ask "what hospital is he at?" he replies with pure man smarts " I dont know" Grrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaattttttttt.. somehow I manged to find him (see I NEED a theme song) went to check on him, and I am very happy to say it was not as bad as we originally all thought... while he did need 3 stitches on the middle finger, sterile strips across his middle finger nail, and one stitch on his other finger.. all is well that ends well.. thank heavens!!

Ok on that note. .I am off to try and get some stuff done.. Have a nice day and remember be good!! Santas watching!!!!

Reasons why I will NOT win mom of the year

there are so many reasons why this award has slipped through the clutches, and i feel inclined to share them with you today.. my blog. .my rules.. :oP

1) I yell. I don't hit but I yell. and somedays I curse. alot. see its not that i am mean, its that I have six kids and I have to be heard. is that an excuse? well no not really.. but its just one of the reasons why I will not be 2008s mom of the year



2) I let my kids eat foods that aren't organic and 100% perfect for you. Yep, I said it. I let them eat bad for you foods. They eat the fast food stuff.. .why because its easy and because I am tired. Yep... again another reason I will not be 2008s mom of the year



3) I dont take them to see Santa or the Easter Bunny. No, the trauma on the face of Mary the last time I tried is still too fresh in my mind.. the bad part is that was umm 9 years ago. See no, i am not gonna get 2008s mom of the year award for not taking my kids to be traumatized... but hey shouldn't I get a point for being good??



4) oooh speaking of Mary. I will NOT be Mom of the year because I am not the perfect parent.. she proved that yesterday when she got in trouble in school and announced to the staff "I am tired of this No, i am not perfect, 1) because she said it and 2) because I have grounded her until February 2009. (hey I am generous with that.. her father (My ex) suggested we send her to reform school or put her up on Ebay)



5) no, I am not gonna win the mom of the year award, because my kids don't have warm fresh baked cookies waiting when they get off the bus, or notes in their lunchboxes.. ok they don't take lunchboxes, they prefer to "get their lunch" at school and only need me for field trips.. (which may i add I make a GREAT lunch for.. and NO not a lunchable... well except that one time..I was weak.. sue me)



6) I am not gonna be the perfect mom because my kids do chores.. chores? HOW rude!! what kind of mother would make her children do chores?? Me. Yep. I sure do. Do they do them? Well um. Sometimes.. other times I find myself well see number 1.



7) Mom of the year slipped away from me, because I have let them stay up and watch TV, play video games, and basicall waste their brain power. Yep, i let my kids be couch potatoes.


8) sometimes they don't wear outfits that match, or arent put together perfectly or God Forbid sometimes we have to threaten the teenage alien boy with

9) sometimes I watch movies or shows and I cry.. and sometimes i cry just because well cause I can cry.. and good moms perfect moms never let them see you sweat. well dammit I do!!! i am emotional. so i lost my award

But ya know, for all my faults, I have kids who love me, kids who will randomly give me hugs (even teenage alien kids) that has to speak for something right? so while 2008s award will go to the mom with the organic meals, who doesn't yell, who makes martha stewart look like she is domestically challenged, to the mom who is perfect. And she can have it. I'll take my hugs and kisses over an award any day ;o)~

a year in review....

Yes, i am stealing someone else's idea.. she posted this on her blog and I love it.. so this is my review..

1. What did you do in 2008 that you’d never done before?
I moved to a house that I am absolutely in love with, every inch of this house, I love. But especially that for the first time since I was 16 I feel like I am HOME. :::sighs::::Oooooh and I didn't get knocked up or worry about it since Chuck got neutered.

2. Did you keep your New Years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
You bet your butt I did. I made a resolution to give birth before 2009 and I did ;oP

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
So many! LOL My January Mommys (<3>, and um who else.. oh yeah! ME!! And I am so talented I did it 10 years and 3 minutes AFTER I gave birth to Mary.. damn I am good.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
I refuse to answer on the grounds that I might jinx things.

5. What countries did you visit?
Ireland, France, Scotland, Germany...... Busch Gardens baby. ;o)~ lol..

6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
patience... and um well money would be nice lol.

7. What dates from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory?
January 5, 2008 <--Emilys bday and July 25, 2008 <--we moved out of the ghetto into our beautiful home.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
My house ;o)~

9. What was your biggest failure?
The diet.. communicating when I am sad..and.. getting out with my husband more

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
csection recovery and all the other crap that has happened since then.. nothing real major

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Brain Age ;o)~ MAN I love that game..

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration
ummmmmm.......well the dog has stopped peeing on the carpet does that count?

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
politicians, Casey Anthony, Chucks Ensign, The Navy for the crap they pulled on us, Someone who works with Chuck and Mel, and I am sure this list can go on and on.

14. Where did most of your money go?
bills and the new house

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Have I told you about my house ;o)~

16. What song/album will always remind you of 2008?
LOL.. um I swear its only because I love the songs but either "So what" from Pink or "Chicken Fried" from the Zach Brown band.. or "BAd things" from Jace Everett

17. Compared to this time last year, are you: happier/sadder,thinner/heavier,richer/poorer?happier, about the same, my tush still makes up its own zipcode.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
hmm.. visited my mom.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
Laundry or dishes ;o)~ lol

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
with my family in Alexandria, VA

21. who did you spend most of your time on the phone with?
Oh thats easy.. Chuck, my mom, Mel, Nikia, Erica, and my kids "STOP FIGHTING" "Yes I am COMING home"

22. Did you fall in love in 2008?
head over heels with the sweetest baby girl ever. even when she does get up at 5:45

23. How many one night stands in this last year?
I was more for the one night sleeps... ;o)~ and i had a few of those.. but I had more of the one night get up and feed me mommys

24. What was your favourite TV program?
Greys, ER, Ugly Betty, Dirty Sexy Money (HOW dare them take it away from me) oh and without a doubt TRUE BLOOD!!

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
I just really don't have the time to hate anyone..

26. What was the best book(s) you read?
Any of the Amish ones I read, and I really love Nicholas Sparks new one.. I started it this morning and I am already half done (yes Karen i know I have had it for weeks but no time)

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
oh this one is so easy... I discovered that Rob McNelley plays a MEAN version of hammerhead stew and I discovered Lady Antebellum is awesome.

28. What did you want and get?
my house..

29. What did you want and not get?
that damn winning lottery ticket

30. What were your favourite films of this year?
Twilight, Mad money, Dan in real life.. and I know there are more.

.31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
Chuck and I went to dinner at Red Robin for our birthdays (3 days apart) and I celebrated the 8th anniversary of my 29th birthday

32. What's one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
hmm.. I am not sure

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
that would be the fashion of poor fat mama.

34. What kept you sane?
sane? did you not read where I previously said you either get kids or sanity.. NEVER both?

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
umm.. I still <3 McDreamy

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Probably the historical nature of the election

37. Who did you miss?
My daddy..gone 9 years still hurts

38. Who was the best new person you met?
Emily and Nikia

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008.
Freecycle is a great way to get rid of stuff and get stuff.
Never underestimate how good it is to feel safe.
People who are mean suck
Everyone needs to be held accountable for their actions, good and bad
People who live in glass houses shouldn't throw stones
and
Never underestimate how good a pair of new socks or new underwear feel ;o)~

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year?
"Don't worry.. be happy" <--and I had to THINK of that.. pretty good eh?

Growl..snarl.... you get the idea.

I know.. its only 7:49 and I am up and in a bad mood.. not good. Its never good to roll out of bed with a snarl on your face.. but today, I have one. And once again its partly due to that damn almighty dollar. Ok not partly mostly.....We are due to get a deposit tonight at midnight.. I have checked the bank pretty much hourly for the last two days.. nothing. Chuck called the pay people, they show its coming.... but its somewhere lost in cyber space or wherever lost pay goes. Its not that I am being neurotic.. ok.. maybe I am being neurotic but dammit, this is NOT the time for them to play pay games.. When we have our taxes.. THEN they can play those games.. not now. When we have money in the account and aren't needing the pay.. that would be ok.. TODAY its NOT ok. growls.

Where is the logic on starting with kids first thing in the morning before they go to school about their get up and go being gone when it comes to doing chores.. I have told him numerous times NOT to start on them. Mainly because sending a kid to school, after you upset them, only leads to a bad day. I have said this over and over, I am at the point where I want to start making flash cards so I don't have to say it anymore, I can just show the flash cards. growls x 2.

ok.. while I posted yesterday that i feel like we are broken.. or even just chipped. And he did read it, I know this because even though he said not a word (strong silent type.. no...more the ignore and try and correct quickly type), we sat in the room and he talked to me, touched my leg etc.. but sadly.. while he sees it, he doesn't get it. I feel like I am standing in a glass room.. one more thing goes up and I am gonna scream and shatter the room around me. I know communication is golden, but how do you communicate that you need something and you aren't even sure what you need? I am back to the whole Buy me a Rose thing.... God Bless guys who can write songs, because they can say stuff that nobody else can say.... and no its NOT that I want roses, its the theory of it.

Buy me a rose
Kenny Rogers

He works hard To give her all He thinks she wants
A three car garage, Her own credit cards
He pulls in late To wake her up With a kiss Good night
If he could only Read her mind, She'd say:

Buy me a rose, Call me from work
Open a door for me, What would it hurt
Show me you love me By the look in your eyes
These are the little things I need The most in my life

Now the days have grown To years Of feeling
All aloneAnd she can't help But wonder what She's doing wrong
Cause lately she'd Try anything To turn his head
Would it make a differenceIf she'd said:

Buy me a rose, Call me from work
Open a door for me, What would it hurt
Show me you love me By the look in your eyes
These are the little things I need The most in my life

And the more that he lives The less that he tries
To show her the love That he holds inside
And the more that she gives The more that he sees
This is a story Of you And me

So I bought you a rose On the way home
From workTo open the door To a heart
That I hurtAnd I hope you notice
'This look in my eyes Cause I'm gonna make Things right
For the rest of your life(Rest of your life)And I'm gonna Hold you tonight
Do all those Little things
For the rest Of your life

thats about as out there as I can put it. Its not the big things, its the little things. What happened to the pause in the kitchen, to give a hug? What happened to the snuggles? Where did it go? and can it be found? I realize things change and people change, but if you can't show someone you love them, why are we here? It sounds so easy as I type it out, why is it so flipping complicated? I hate that other people see a different side of you, and I see this side, I want to see the old side.. the side I have seen you show to others. I need to see it.

wow. I just put all that out there in black and white. On that note, I am gonna go get my morning started, dress the baby and we are gonna go have breakfast. Please pray that this stupid deposit goes in, or things will most defnitely be more bleak then they feel now.

Whats up Wednesday?

Whats up? Chuck and I went shopping last night and are about 93% done with Christmas shopping...the last 7% is stocking stuffers and a few items we will get this weekend sadly we did not buy one item that David has spoken about religiously (Handy Manny tool truck.. its $59.99 OMG... anyways this morning he opens up the fisher price catalog sees it and says "and THATS what I am getting from Santa" uh oh.. we are gonna work it out..

Whats up? I am still as far from knowing what to get for Chuck as I was last week when I posted this, the practical things I would buy, i am not sure he would want or even like.. it sucks. Plus, :deep breath:: sometimes I feel like we really don't even know each other anymore.. we can be in the same room and barely a word will be exchanged. its like we are here, but we are not here together. I am not sure what it is, but sometimes things feel broken, or more like just chipped. sighs.

Whats up? bad mothers put on Elmo in grouchland for 20 minutes of peace and quiet and to watch their 11 month old little girl shake her tushy to the blanket song lol.. psst I am a bad mother

Whats up? wanna know what stephs getting for christmas.. sike.. so does she and she reads my blog. .haha stephanie :oP

Whats up? there is a lady I know, she is so very sweet, and she is having it rough right now.. i only know her through our blogs, but I wanted her to know that whats up, is i am thinking of her and hoping her path grows smooth soon. :o)~

Whats up? Emily needs a nap so its time for me to end this for today.. more tomorrow.

Trouble with a capital T

There is sooo much I want to talk about today, and so little I can say.. but suffice to say... I am a bit ticked off. I can and will say this, my neice (Who I love dearly) got involved with the wrong kind of person.. REALLY wrong kind of person and that is now effecting her life and my mother. I can deal with her screwing up her life, and it effecting her.. 1) she's a grown up and its her choice 2) even if I did give a damn see number 1. Ok I lie.. I hate that she is screwing up her life, she is a bright wonderful woman who is screwing up so bad its going to have massive long term effects and that PISSES me off (pardon the bad word. I am mad). Anyways.. now this stuff is effecting my mom (as in when someone shows up at your door bangs the door down looking for that person.. it will effect someone.. especially someone who is in her 70s with a heart condition and has NEVER even had a fricking parking ticket (ok I know she doesn't drive but she has a license it could happen). Anyways... my mom calls me I answered hi how are you, typical for me.. mom and I talk like 100 times a day.. (Chuck would say that is a slow day har har) anyways.. she says "fine well except the six people who just came in with guns drawn looking for (insert jerk of the years name here)" do what? So we talk... neice and sir butthead did breakup, and she has nothing to do with anymore.. too bad the damage is already pretty much effectively done. Neice is now all but guilty due to her association and it can cause issues for her.. GROWL I am ticked..

Ok.. breathe... other events of my morning:

1) Emily has learned to climb up on the bricks to the fireplace..great.. we are now climbing.. fun. i knew she was part mountain goat.. all my kids are.

2) I spilled my soda (ok I know its not serious. but its caffeine and that does NOT belong on my floor today.. I NEED it)

3) I found out that my washing machine was EMPTY instead of having the load of clothes that were in the hamper inside and washed.. Growl I hate that.

4) I read David's teacher of her account of David and whether he has ADHD, she pretty much wrote down that he is the second coming of Damian.

and

5) I have threatened to call Santa three times, and had to think of what I was going to do when December is over.. "I am gonna call the Easter bunny" just doesn't have the same pull. Santa leaves coal.. what does the Easter bunny leave.. rabbit pellets? oy vey.

Ok.. I am gonna go smile.. start my day over and make my list for shopping tonight... funny shopping story for saturday, we were getting the boys erector sets.. not once, not twice but three times I called them erection sets.. :oX I am not sure why.. but that is just further proof I need adult contact more often.. oh and probably nookie lol.

Not Me Monday....

With the day on the calendar, we see that today is Monday, and therefore it is time for Not me Monday.

I did not feel myself age at least 10 years this morning, when my son Daniel turned 15 years old, making me the mother of a 17, 15, 14, 10(almost 11), 4 and 11 months old (almost 1) . wow. hard to believe how time has flown by. it was NOT me who feels 50 instead of 37.

I did not look at pictures of me with disgust and anxiety this morning, as i realize that i feel as big as a house. I did not question whether I should just stop eating altogether or do something else exreme.

I did not argue with Chuck about the football game, even though he is still going on and I told him yesterday to drop it.

I did not become further annoyed today about a phone call I received, that made me question why I try and accomplish anything, because for every two steps forward I get pushed two steps back.

I did not try and think of the best way to tell someone that I am just miserable, and I am not sure how to fix that issue.

I did not really enjoy that Saturday I spent all day with Chuck doing Christmas shopping and being out, and i did not become slightly sad when he reached out and touched my arm a few times that night, or kissed my hand and i realized i could not remember the last time he did that.

I did not just audibly get excited because Muppets Christmas Carol is on the Disney family movie channel and its one of my FAVORITE Christmas movies..ok maybe i did do that one ;o)