happy new year

Should old acquaintance be forgot.. and never come to mind..... I dont know the rest of the words to this song.. something something auld lang syne!! Happy new year!!

So, here I am. Last year I posted on this very blog about going on Weight watchers, I broke up with my Dr Pepper and all my fast food restaurants. Do you need a refresher? it was here: new Year-new me new tude and over here as well cause they say breaking up is hard to do. yep, I posted it out loud and held myself accountable.

What happened? Well, over the past year I have lost a super model and a half. :o) I was strong. I worked hard and I am thrilled with the results...

but...

It's just not good enough.

What is she insane? Yes, she is. See this year I turn 40. Yep 40.. I figure mid meal that day this guy is going to show up:

and dang it. .if he is I am gonna be ready for him. so this year my goal is to get out of the 20's and into the teens before I turn 40. That way it will not be oh no 4-0.. it will be wut ohhhhh 4--oooohhhhh ;o)

I hope you guys will stick around..

Oh another resolution, I plan to blog more. I sure do miss it!!

Is anyone still here?

It has been an awful long time since I blogged, over the past few months tons has happened. So let's review from my last post in July:

July:

We let freedom ring, Chuck served his AT for the Navy and than he got a job with the Federal Govt. After years and yesrs of contractor work he is now a federal employee. Relief? yes a bit. Much time was spent at the pool and we played in the sun and fun of Norfolk VA. I started a bow business (we will get to that at the bottom I promise)

August:

Stephanie graduated from high school! She turned 19 and we all began to move about getting ready for this school year. Around this time we got a phone call from the people who held our rent with option... sighs. The woman we dealt with basically gave us an ultimatum we were unable to make happen. It is a long story and one that bothers me daily.

September:

The search is on for new digs, Chucks job is going wonderfully he graduates with his Assocites ALL the kids go back to school. Danny is a junior, AJ is a sophmore, Mary is in 6th grade and David is in first. Emily and Stephanie are home with me during the day one too young and one needing a break after the trying time she dealt with. The scale and I had a meeting of the minds and I declared diet 2010 to be a success. I wore my first size 20 jeans in almost as many years! Awesome.

October:

Halloween and fall in full swing. We start to get things going we think we find the perfct house but arent sure. We keep it in the back of our minds and try to figure out if we want to make things work on the old house. Ah yes until we find out the roof needs to be replaced for 10,000, the plumbing needs $5000 in work ah yes it is time to move. I work more and more craft shows and I have a ball. :o)

November:

we move to a five bedroom 2 bathroom house, we celebrate Thanksgiving with my family. There are certain benefits to this house (the extra bathroom and bedroom) but also disadvantages I miss my big kitchen :o( We Christmas shopped I got tickets to go see Garth Brooks in Nashville in December because Chuck rocks

December:

The house is decorated, the holiday season approaches and nervously I wonder what 2011 holds. I have lost 151 lbs this past year. I am under 200 pounds for the first time since I was in high school. Thats almost 21 years! WOW!!

Now onto my business, if you are on Facebook, look up Em & m bows. Tell me you found me via my blog!! We have such fun and I really am enjoying it. :o) http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#!/pages/Em-M-Bows/136283169739108

Let freedom ring.

It has been awhile, but I had to take a few steps back from the blog. It started to become more important to slam people via this blog and that was never my intention for the blog. So I stepped away. Now, I am starting to feel semi human again, and decided it is time to start to write again.

Today the United States celebrates our independence. We celebrate that we can vote for whomever we choose (which in turn gives us the right to complain about the elected officials if we see fit)

We can wake up each day without the threat of war, we can wake up and go grocery shopping and enjoy the freedom to do so.

We can walk around freely thanks to the men and women who have fought for many years to keep us free.

We are free to make decisions --sometimes right, sometimes wrong--but free to make them just the same.

As we look up at the night sky, as the fireworks blast over head, remember that you are lucky to be a citizen of such a great land. Where freedom doesn't come cheap.

Where the heck have you been???

Ok.. since May 25, life has been difficult and confusing. To make matters more fun, the past 24 hours have not gotten any better...to be honest they have gotten worse. :o( But I felt like I had to check in. So let's review my life, the Good and the bad:

Stephanie-

She is due to graduate on Tuesday but thnks to Virginia and their stupid Standard of Learning test (yes, the letters are SOL) she will not be graduating. She missed the Geometry exam by 12 points. The poor girl is so depressed. She can retake the test in July but right now all she sees is she is simply not graduating. The world can not offer her a big enough hug, I feel horrible for her and like somehow I failed her. I hate this.

My ex-

Still unemployed...we have not had child support in any fashion in 9 weeks. We have mostly survived but right now I feel like the walls are closing in, and it sort of sucks. I am trying to breathe and tell myself that there is a light at the end of the tunnel.. right now it feels like the damn thing is a Mack truck though.

The Good-

I started making bows to bring in some revenue.. Its coming slow but it is coming in some. www.emmbows.blogspot.com is the site if you want to take a peek. I hear I am pretty creative :o)~ I guess that is a good thing.

The other good-

AJ did so well 4th quarter he is going to play football next year. I am tickled for him. This will be very good for him and he has always wanted to play. I am excited for him and trying NOT to panic about him getting hurt. But the boy is a TANK ;o)~

So there is my news, what is new with you?

post it note tuesday

Ok here we are again… another week I am ready… are you?

Absences and Promzilla.

Normally, during the week I make a point to blog, half the time it is therapy for me. This past week after feeling like more of my blogs were coming across as a crash and burn than something worth reading I decided to take a break. Life lately has been complicated and rough, we are dealing with quite a lot of problems and it seems like everytime we might get control something else sprials us further out of control.

You guys have heard me trash my ex husband in jest, but really I am frusturated. He has been out of work for 9 weeks, while I know the economy stinks, he is habitually unemployed. This is killing us right now. To top that off, Stephanie had her senior prom tonight and with that comes tons of expenses and by the time tonight hit, I was ready to scream. Making things worse, we seem to keep adding more and more stress on ourselves lately. It seems like everytime we think "ok we will make it" something else breaks or gives in. The next thing to break or give in, will likely be me.

I do however want to show you what happens to a teenage girl as she gets ready for her prom, it looks something like this:


beautiful teenage daughter

+

Godzilla

=

PROMZILLA!!!

Surely you have all heard of bridezillas, in the past 72 hours my sweet daughter has had head spinning moments that would make even Mother Teresa want to kick her tail. I love her, and she looked GORGEOUS going out today but man oh man oh man.. what a rough few days!! I however, would not have missed them for anything. Isn't my baby beautiful? Er um.. the one in light green not the other one.

Well, I think that covers it for now, if you pray and want to toss a prayer or two our way we would gladly accept them. I promise, I don't look gift prayers in the mouth.

True Story Tuesday

There is a blog, Once upon a Miracle, that really makes me go through my memory box... to peddle through the memories the good ones of growing up as a military brat with my family, the bad ones (my divorce), the good again meeting my knight in shining armour (or camo armour) The not so great my son David's diagnosis with Asperger's Syndrome and the good again.

My mind you see is an open book, sometimes I think I should close it and other times I want to fast forward to the next chapter to see what happens next. So, today I go back into the vault of Memories and from it I pull this:

In 2001, shortly after August I told my husband that I was done with being married to him. few months later, as I was leaving (on a jet plane.. no seriously I was) that I was totally done and when I got home we would work things out. I tried to make things work for a long time and was going to wrestle with my mind while I was in Los Angeles and we would talk when I got home about what to do and how to do it. My husband had been exposed in August 2000 of having a three year affair with my then best friend. At the time, I tried my hardest to forgive him but every fight "I didnt sleep with your best friend" came up. The day I found out, I searched out a very dear friend of mine on the Internet. My friend Chuck and I had been talking for nearly three years on the Internet, he and I both had marital woes (his mostly that his wife was a drunk who did not really think of their child). I found my friend and told him what I found out and he nursed me through my broken heart, hearing me tell him I was going to make it work "for the kids." In the midst of this in Decemer 2000, Chucks wife went on a two week "visit" to Iceland, and never came back. She kidnapped his son. (Insert bad word here). She kept telling him he was coming back til he moved his Duty station to Norfolk, VA when she told him she was not coming back she wanted a divorce. He searched me out and together we licked our wounds.

Fast forward, I was leaving on November 7th to go to LA to go see Garth Brooks with a very good friend Susan who knew I needed a vacation. While there I forgot my problems and had a ball. I returned home to a little girl who had been effectively neglected while I was gone, Mary was still in diapers and I returned home to diapers that had hardly been changed. I was not amused at all. GW and I fought I reiterated that I was done. We agreed to live together but we were apart (until he could get out), and we would not tell the kids just yet. Fast forward two weeks, Garth is going to be down in Norfolk, VA (Yes, I was that fanatical.. who are we kidding I AM tht fanatical). I went down there with my friend Mel (who is now the BFF).. called my buddy Chuck to see if he could get us on base (yea I used that Navy lifeline I admit it) he was unable to meet us, but told me to call him later. I called him later as I was getting ready to head home to Alexandria and said "its Now or never..." he said "Now" and told me where to meet him. I was a nervous wreck, although finished and separated with my first husband I was meeting a MAN. I was insane. .what if he was a serial killer (turns out he's just a cereal killer--dude can put away a box of Frosted Shredded wheat by himself I mean it!) So, I stood there waiting and he shows up gives me a GREAT big hug and I knew I was toast. In that second the electricity that shook us both could light up three city blocks during a blackout. Chuck and I took it slow but we have been together since.

He treats me like a queen, even on days when I don't deserve it. He treats my kids like gold and even respects my ex which is impressive cause half the time I can't pull that off. He took on four kids that were not his own, has paid for my ex's indiscretions numerous times (mostly because I have trust issues) and still loves us all uncondionally. I am lucky to have him, and I do have to remember to tell him more often.

We never did get to see Garth that day, but on March 12, we went over to the Capitol building in Washington DC. Chuck always knew that I had met Garth but did not believe he knew me by name.. til it happened. When he saw us he said "hey Tricia, let me put Trisha in the car and I will be right back to you" Chuck's mouth hit the floor, Garth is just the nicest guy you will ever meet. He immediately asked if I brought him cookies (well yes sir, I had and roses) he asked for them (I make him sugar cookies with M&M's he loves them and has told me so before as he has dug in BEFORE leaving us. (I have met him 10 times. yea I hate me too). Garth and Chuck spoke for a few minutes and Garth was as impressed with Chuck as Chuck was with Garth. Chuck registered the whole thing and was just shocked. The next day I had to rush to get the pics developed (cough long time ago) and online so he could show is senior enlisted officer he was not bsing.. he REALLY was late cause he met Garth lol. So there you have it.. a story within a story within a story.. sad (my divorce), happy (my knight in camo armour), and fun (I met Garth). See you back next week? :o)~